Ughhhhh Lord......
Yeah that's right. I'm pretty angry right now. My mom called me a bitch and told me to fuck off. She said that Scott (stepdad) told her I said stuff about her: she never does anything doesn't work, gives me a hard time when I ask for money, and that I don't respect her. I never said I don't respect her, and if I said "she doesn't do anything" (which I don't think I said) I didn't mean it like that. I know she can't really work because my brother is a handful. She wouldn't even let me explain myself. I told I never said anything about having no respect for her and she's like well you don't have to show it, your actions show it. My actions? If I didn't respect her, why the hell would I obey her orders, listen to whatever she says, and I try to make her proud. I don't go out causing trouble, I want to make her feel like she has one good kid that she can depend on. So that's not respect? That was about 4 hours hours ago. I've been watching/tv sleeping in my room since. She also said that she wanted an apology, but didn't want to hear it until I got some respect for her. I do have respect for her, but I don't want to apologize. I don't want to because I don't think I did anything wrong. If I apologized, it'd be fake, and I don't give fake apologies. I don't know am I wrong or something? All I basically told Scott was that I don't like when she's always on my back about stuff and I don't think she has any right to be cause I'm doing alot of [good] things she's never done or finished. I'm not trying to sound like I'm condescending. I just dont like being nagged. I think that's all I have to say now. Oh and I cried. I haven't cried in a few weeks. I couldn't help it.
*blow the last candle out, let the wax harden, i wish i could stop crying, i wish that someone still loved me*