Saturday, August 09, 2003

One good post, deserves another...
Well, I haven't written in a long time, cuz I've been at home wallowing in self-pity and self-loathing. It's been a boring summer. I haven't gone out in a while, I'm bored out of my mind and I spend the entire day watching the television, because all of my friends live so far from me and I hate having to commute! I need my liscense! That way I could drive myself places and feel less lame and sheltered from the freaking world. I'm also stressing cuz I don't know what I am going to do about college, cuz I've pretty much screwed myself over with my grades. I know I'm not stupid I just am lazy and get into ruts a lot, but I swear on everything that I'm not going to do that this year! I want to go away for awhile and be by myself, in a new location somewhere where maybe I can be so busy that I don't have time to think about my petty problems and my issues. Somewhere where I can just start fresh. You know this is somethingI was hoping for with highschool, no one from my eighth grade class was coming to my highschool and I felt I could just be myself, but I fell into another vicious cycle, but I should stop talking now. Megan, I'm sorry about your mom, and I'm sorry that your dad is such a freaking dead beat (is dead beat one word or two?) that the only check you have received in years is for only six bucks. If you really need to talk about it you can call me. I don't know what kind of advice I can give you, but I know I can lend you an ear so you can vent a bit more privately if you want. That's all for now.

~KASTLE~

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