The worst has passed....

So I spent the weekend dying. My body was totally against me. I had mentioned a sore throat on Friday. Well that sore throat proceeded to get progressively worse as time went on. Saturday I woke up and I could barely talk and my nose and ears were congested. Yes my ears felt like they needed to pop but never did. I went to work and by the time I came home I was dizzy and practically dying. I bought some cold medicine and crashed on the couch. This was at about 3 pm. I didn't come to until about 10:30 when Edi called me and my sister had brought me some 7-up. I had a fever. I went back to sleep at about 11:30 and tossed and turned all night. I woke up again in the morning at like 9:30 when edi and melissa texted me. I fell back asleep still feeling feverish. I had chills. I still couldn't breath and it hurts to even swallow my own spit. I finally woke up at 2:30 in the afternoon. My fever had broken. I was just a little tired and slightly hungry. My parents came home around 4 and brought me some lunch.

I'm better today I just have a stuffy nose and a hell of a lot of phlem...(gross, I know)

Here's to a speedy recovery.

Today a seven year old told me that my iPod was fat.

In other news....

Today I taught a theater workshop for 6 through 12 year olds. It worked out pretty well. We seperated the kids into two groups. I taught the 6-9 year olds first and they were really receptive and they were really good.

The 10-12 year olds were a different story. They were loud and full of attitude. It took 10 minutes to get them to quiet down and pay attention. I finally got them through the different activities I had for them, but I was left feeling likeI hadn't done my job properly. Oh well, I guess next time I'll try different tactics.

Yesterday was pretty rough. Everyone was stressed out at work. I was so frustrated that I even yelled at the cute estimator guy that I like. I don't remember exactly what I said, but I sounded pissed and sarcastic. Oh well.

I didn't go to sleep till late yesterday because I spent an hour on the phone listening to Ediana tell me about this new guy she's like in love with. I had my eyes closed already because I was so tired, I just let her ramble on while adding in the occasional, "mmmhmmm" and "oh yeah?" and a couple of, "oh thats nice." I was so beat and she didn't get it. But whatever, she's lonely in her apartment so I let her ramble on about her day to me. God knows I tell her the stupd stuff about my crush all the time.

I could sure go for a nap right now and a couple of throat lozenges because those kids had me shouting.

So ladies what have you guys been u to lately? I miss you all soooo much! I swear I'm going to stop working so much and plan a day for us to all get together.

Evenin' Ladies...

I finished summer school on Friday, and have the rest of the summer to enjoy. And by enjoy, I mean attempt to work 40 hours a week. Mmmm money. I'd like to pay my credit cards off by November, because credit card companies are slimey bastards. I tried to pay credit card #1 yesterday, and their web server was down. But oh, how convenient that yesterday was the due date for my payment. I was able to get to my account today and find a $39 late fee. Real slick, Capital One. Credit card #2 claimed to have no interest til September '07, but apparently if you miss a payment, that deal is void. It went from no interest to 29.99% interest. Ugh! And while I'm on it, fuck health insurance, too.

Yeah, I don't have too much to report other than don't get a credit card!

Is anyone going to see Harry Potter on Wednesday?! I am!
I should have read the book over again but i barely have time for those things anymore. I WILL be making time to read the final book however.
In other news, I bought a new cellphone on Sunday. It's nice. WAY nicer than my last phone. I didn't care that I was ridiculed by little kids and by my peers at the sight of my phone...but then the keypad started going out and it annoyed the crap outta me. I'm glad this was finally done. It was a necessary purchase. My purchase of Mobile Phone Tools, a cool ringtone and easy edge however, was not.

I found a cat today. On the way back from the park, I saw it lounging there in someone's front garden. "hey, what are you doing outside" "MEW MEW MEW" It cried. "Where is your home?" "MEW MEW MEW" some more. Sometimes, I hate my weakness of love for cats. So, i picked him up and pet him. (I'm supposed to be at work.) I looked around and all I saw were some gang bangin' lookin' guys who were yelling at each other. Just then the cat started wriggling so i put him down. I hesitated about 2 or 3...ok, maybe 8 times before continuing on my way. Goodluck to my new cat friend.

i would like to secound the crocs hating. they are so ugly!! and i can not imagine having your hot bare foot on rubber all day can be comfortable. and now they have little ugly charms to further uglify them with. i mean dont get me wrong i appreciate the wounderfulness in some ugly things. like thrift store luggage or besty johnson handbags or those lovely floral print dresses all grandmothers wear. but crocs is not on that list they are awful and disgrace cute shoes everywhere.

I also hate Crocs. those stupid plastic shoes are heinous! They should be banned for being so ugly. In other news, popeyes is getting more expensive I swear!!! Bastards!

I hate airports.

rain rain rain some more

So, how about that flood today?
I attempted to walk 4 blocks down the street to the American Indian Center. I ran two blocks, walked one and was soaking, sopping, dripping wet. It felt good but not good at the same time. I like taking showers but not with all of my clothes on in the middle of Uptown. So, i stop with one block left to go at a Walgreens hoping the rain will die down. After 15 minutes it didn't so i bought an umbrella and treked the last block to the building.
After an hour and a half, my mommy came to rescue me and we went on our way to go see a movie. you know, figh' dollah hollah at Western and Fullerton, 'cept now its six dollah hollah. it doesn't roll as good off the tongue. Anyway, we were stuck East of all of the viaducts near the train tracks on Ravenswood. We drove around for a really long time along the big, non-flooded intersections. We saw a school bus that got stuck in about 4 ft of water....there were people still on the bus. So, then we drove south down Ashland until we got to Tapatia and got some dinner. Then we made our way to Western to watch Shrek III. By the time we got out of the movie it was like 9:30 and all the water was dried up in most of the places.



Where were you during the Flood of 2007?

Reason 557 Why I hate the Suburbs


I got to come in to work today later then the time I normally come in. I was really tired and since I basically work as my sister's assistant, she let me sleep in. I woke up at noon and I went to buy her and myself lunch. It was really humid and really hot today. It was overcast and even without having seen the forecast I knew that there was an hell of a thunder storm headed our way.

When I came into the office she told me I was going to have to run some errands. I needed to go to Melrose Park and take a check to Crescent City. I also had to go make some deposits and mail out some letters. I decided to go do the farthest thing first and go to drop off the check.

There was a good amount of traffic and it took me about half an hour to get there. I turned on to the small street that the company is on, I didn't see any parking so I was going to park in front of the store right in front of the place, even though there was a sign that said no parking. As I was going to flipe a u-turn, I hit this white ford explorer. I wanted to die. The left hand front light has been smashed in. Its really upsetting. I don't have insurance, so I have to ask this man to please not fle a police report and let me have my cousin fix it. My cousin owns the welding and fencing company I work at, but for many years he used to own an auto body shop. so he's going to be fixing the car. I have to pay for it. I also have to pay for my car which sucks.

So that was today. Yesterday was pretty bad as well. I was driving down central park and I saw the body of the little girl who was shot in the cross fire of gang violence. I had never seen anything more frightening than that in my entire life. I started crying. It was so sad. I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

What a week and its only tuesday.

why hello there people! so i do not understand what is so hard about ordering a sandwich. it is not rocket science. first if you place your order with one person who makes the sandwich and then places it in the oven. it is in there for 1 min and 45 sec. not a long time. so when you step down to the next station and i am waiting to put the toppings on the first thing i ask is " what are you having today?" the average response SHOULD be " turkey wheat" or maybe " vegitarian" but no here are some common responses

1) " um ummmmmmm i dont remember ha ha ha"
so if you dont know what you ordered 1 min after you said it it probably is not a laughing matter you may want to have some things checked out you might have a brain tumor

2) " well i just told that guy down there ask him!"
now my response to this if just fuck you. irst there are already 10 peoplebehind you in line and how is that person going to remember what you had, oh thats right because you are soooooo special. if you are so affended by me asking what you were having then maybe you should go home and make yourself a turkey with swiss cheese and throw it in the microwave.

alright now i realize you are probably like ok she is going to go postal. i just needed to rant. friday robert is coming into town. i only get to see him for like 48 hours but it will be like hitting a reset button. i have the weekend off i can just relax and hang out with him. maybe next week i wont be so grumpy.
i will make a happier post next time

Hey ladies, I'm back! Hopefully for more than 5 posts. I'll update everyone later. I just want to post something I wrote yesterday right now.



Thursday night, I spent a couple hours at the wake of an old friend, Carlos. It was sad - and I felt bad. I hadn't talked to Carlos in over a year. He was one of the people I used to see at shows and we would talk on AIM alot about new bands, etc. In the past year, I stopped going to shows and haven't been online much. It was due to spending all of my time with my ex, John. Even though there were plenty of times where I just wanted to hang out with my friends, I ended up guilt tripped into spending my time with John. Now, I'm starting to go to shows again and I figured I'd see Carlos. I've been signing on to AIM more often, and figured maybe he'd talk to me about some new bands since I've been out of the loop. But now that won't happen. I hope he knew I thought he was a really cool guy. And I hope he's in a better place now.

I've lost quite a few people in my life, actually. And last night I was thinking - appreciate who you have while you have 'em. I don't think I've ever had a chance to say goodbye to anyone, but I hope they all know that I cared about them very much. Sometimes it may not seem like it, but I really appreciate a lot of the people in my life. I know I let bad shit get me down and I dwell on it - but I never forget what I have. I'm grateful for what and who I have in my life. I've had rough times with some people, but I love them very much. Yes, maybe sometimes I do come off as a cynical curmudgeon - but I have a big heart. And there's alot of peoples' names in it.

I took my dog for a walk today. It was so nice outside. I know that sounds odd, but I love this kind of weather. The breeze that whips up right before it rains and the eerie quality that there is in the air. There was no one outside and the only thing you could hear was the sound of the wind chimes on the front porch of the house at the very end of the block.It started raining and for some reason I didn't want to go inside, so I kept walking. I love the way it smells when it rains. It is the smell of wet dirt and wet grass and the added smell of the wet dog trotting along next to me. It's my thinking weather. I become even more pensive and I take the time to reflect about whats going on in my life.

Lately I've had a very strained relationship with my parents. Maybe its because of my age and the idea that they still have of me in their heads. Or maybe its because they don't want to let go and let me live and they still want to keep me as their little girl.

Sunday was father's day. I did the traditional Father's day things, bought him a gift and took him out to eat. Then we got in a fight with my mother at the restaurant and it was like any other sunday.

I used to envy other people's relationships with their mothers. As most people who know me know, my mother and I do not get along very well. I would sit and listen to my friends tell me how they were best friends with their mothers and how they could tell their mothers anything and I would think about how much I would love to be able to talk to my mom like that. Then they start telling me about their dads. How they never see them or how they don't even talk to them and I think to myself, thats not how it is with my dad.

I grew up being the epitome of a daddy's girl. My dad's nickname for me is, "mi reina" it literally means "my queen" but prolly is more along the lines of princess. Before my father started coming to church with us, I would come home and find a new movie every sunday. I was spoiled. We played basketball in the yard and occasionally soccer and sometimes a game of catch.

I wasn't that interested in sports, but for the sake of spending some time with my dad, I enjoyed it. Every year that the Chicago Bulls won the championship game I had been watching and cheering my team on with my dad. I watch the world cup soccer matches with him as well and I made sure to watch the superbowl this past february, even though the game started at midnight and didn't have the commercials that make the superbowl enjoyable. I did it, because it gave me something to be able to talk about with my dad.

My father is a man of few words. He's not a conversationalist, but he doesn't need to be. He's very good at listening and lets me ramble on about my day or about whatever new is going on in my life, all the while paying close attention and giving a few interjections here and there. While he may be a quiet man he does have a pretty good sense of humor. I like to think that that's where I get it from.

I also get my love of reading and of learning new things from my father. About a year or so ago my father started learning how to use a computer. It may sound silly to us, but we are a generation that grew up surrounded by computers. My father was raised in a small town in mexico during the late 1940's and 50's and they barely even had a television. He started out working on an old laptop that we had. He would come home from a long hard day at work and unwind, eat dinner and then go and practice his typing. Occasionally he would call me or my sister in to ask us questions and teach him the shortcuts that we know. This past Christmas we gave him a brand new laptop. I also tried to teach him how to use the internet and send me emails while I was away, but it didn't really work out. We got to take baby steps with these things.

My father isn't perfect and we have our disagreements. I also aquired his love of slamming doors when angry. He does little things that piss me off, but I know that I do too. Like I know that it pisses him off when I stay out late and don't pick up my cell phone. Things happen and you learn to live with them.

My dad and I may not have the perfect father-daughter relationship, but I think we have a pretty good one.

MOMMY IS IN TOWN!!!!
She got in on Friday night and we all met up and went to Giordano's for deep dish pizza. The rental car that she rented is the exact same car as Nicole's lol. She's in town for Mia's graduation and vacation for two weeks.
I must say that the past two weeks have been super crazy for me. The last week of class I had some papers and one final due and as soon as classes ended (and finals week began) all of my jobs (just two) wanted me to work a bajillion hours and so i ended up working 38 hours during FINALS WEEK!!! Full-time work with full-time school (during finals no less). I don't know how I survived. I didn't even break down crying like i usually do during midterms (hey, i'll admit it). We had a planting ceremony, a graduation ceremony, an awards ceremony and then had to prepare for our summer program to begin, which involved hard labor giving our whole room a make-over with new furniture....all with no A/C. Then after that was when my mom came in and wanted all of us to help prepare for my sister's graduation party and then get up at 6am the next morning for her commencement. phew.....Needless to say, i am pooped. Tonight is the first night i will have to myself before starting work tomorrow from 7:30am-8pm.

So yes, as i mentioned earlier, my sister graduated today. it was alright, slightly long but Annie and I had fun counting down the names- there were a lot. People brought those loud horns...and i know who it was too, lol. Yesterday, at my sister's awesome graduation party, i met her friend who was graduating with a degree in Sociology so she was giving me the heads up about certain teachers.On Thursday I bought two new CDs. Riot by Paramore and Punk Goes Acoustic 2....so far so kick ass. I wish they had more guitar tabs online for Paramore's CD. I like playing and singing her songs...and now I actually have time to play guitar again so i plan on doing that. I also still have to:
Study for the GRE
Learn how to drive
Get driver's license
Save money

more will be added later i'm sure. hey, guys so you should pray for me to be able to go to Hawaii the end of October....i've never been and i really want to go. i'll bring you back something. ;-)

The little highlights of my day

So I'm on my way to work and I stop for coffee at the dunkin donuts on North and Central Park. I turn into the rinky-dink parking and who should turn in after me, but a police officer. Huge surprise there. I quickly park (pretty crappily) and walk in. Inside is a huge smiling coffee cup person and a huge smiling donut person. Frightening? Slightly. Hilarious? Yes. One of the managers is taking pictures of people in line with the cup and the donut. They ask me if I would like my picture taken as well, and being the grouch that I am at 8:30 in the morning without an ounce of caffeine in my system, I said, "hell no." The police officer behind me said yes. This is the result of her agreement.

The image quality is pretty crappy, but the cop is handcuffing the donut. Chicago's finest doing their job.

Anything interesting happen to anyone else today?

Living it up....not....

I'm bored.
I Just got out of work.
I have yet to fill out my Fafsa.
What to do?

Well the obvious is to fill it out isn't it? So anywho. My house arrest is over on friday. Five bucks says that I won't be able to go out on friday to celebrate anyway. Soo upsetting. I feel as though everytime I write its to bitch and moan about how crappy my life is. It's not really that crappy, I'm just feeling a bit stifled.

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Is it really good? I've been looking for a new book to read maybe I'll check it out. Have you ever read the book, 101 people who are screwing up america (and al franken is #37) that book is hilarious!!! I recommend it!

p.s. i had sent dani the invite already, but I re-sent it.

Oh man, i love Erving Goffman. He calls us out on the crazy, absurd, contradicting things that we do. Read Behavior in Public Places if you want to feel like an idiot.